Let me goTHe time has come to say goodbye
the times were good but i must fly
for im a bird ive gained my wings
and my deepest wound no longer stings
no more bars that cage me in
no more blues that steal my grin
no more tears that i will cry
no more wishes that i will die
please smile for me as i leave
throw the cage away and do not grieve
for my love for you will grow
if you can learn to let me go.
-SED- Nov. 7th.2008
Crying tears of crystal balls Crying tears of crystal balls that crash upon
the ground and break into a billion little pieces.
Him in his bandana badness, aviators reflecting the
scattered blue shards, washing down the streetside
drainpipes in the rains soggy sweeping movements.
Theres this feeling inside, that he just cant shake,
and the tears rack his body as a godly earthquake.
Questioning why must it end up this way,
while ciggarette butts overflow the ashtray.
Please dont leave me this way..
And each tiny glass chunk pokes a hole in his heart
and it leaks all the time, but the most when you part.
Dont leave me alone, in this desolate place
when i see the sunrise, all i see is your face..
and i miss your embrace.
but the sound of my tears, silently hitting the ground,
they mean nothing to you, what is lost is not found,
and i cared for you once, in the summers bright glare,
but our time has run out, and its now a nightmare.
of what used to be
with niccotine and coffee
is here just barely
yeah, i can see
RhymeI was numb before but now I feel the pain and it hurts so bad but it feels so fresh I feel it crawl in my flesh oh how I missed it couldn't remember this shit but now I do and I feel great this pain has set me straight cuz this past is stuck on repeat but I refuse to accept defeat retreat hell no you cant make me im standing up today and you cant shake me so dont bother to try just let it slide by all conditions apply yeah its true I care about you and this is my reasoning why you dont lie you make me reach for the sky so if you fuck me im gone if you love me im strong im sick of the cryptic shit but hey I try out my wit cuz I care for you babe your my buttercup but I gotta go now its time for us to wake up and start the day maybe tomorrow I can really tell you in a different way but for today ill tell you in this disarray.
I am growing restlessI am growing restless sleepless careless of this mess this stress it presses down on me so hard just show me your cards now don't bait me mate me nor negate me I am alive don't deprive me of what i strive for keep me locked behind a door or the truth inside your core I implore you please I am on my knees give me the strength to get up off this floor to keep from doing what I done before Self inflicted pain yeah the story of my life of my strife no man and wife for me no no more sanctuary to be found guaranteed I am bound and on the rebound and nothing is the same whose to blame for all this confusion all this delusion are we ashamed When did this start this chapter that is our captor you have stolen my heart if you don't want it then just give it back don't pack it away for a gray rainy day to take out and play with you know i cant break away from this as long as you say you care care care do you dare But you cannot repair this beware of this despair it cannot compare to anything you'v
Its a constant rush of emotionIts a constant rush of emotion with no notion of right or wrong trying to rationalize feeling the way I do bipolar disorder they come in no particular order I try this recorder it takes me nowhere beware these sounds will ensnare you they will tear you apart from the inside out no doubt this shit is my own this shit is my home these things grow inside of me reside in me until I cant hold it no more and it busts down the door it attacks like a spore contagious outrageous that I go to such trouble to contain to maintain this human that I am this freak that I am this insanity I breed I am what you need so fuck you I need you too but insanity is what I bleed so fuck it ill admit that im unfit is that what you wanna hear dear that I dont need you near you are everything I fear everything I hate my fucking fate it lies with you fuck that im already dead in my head its all unread unsaid go ahead and dream the unreal kneel down to it the whole ordeal is a ferris wheel it makes me feel crazzzy
Just swallow the lumpJust swallow the lump in your throat demote it dont promote it quote me when i say that tears are greythey will betray you to your dismay you will displayyour decay like an x-ray so stay strong staymysterious cause tears make you delerious im serious now remeber all those times before you sankto the floor behind a door you said no more and hereyou are its so bizarre where is my shooting star where is my sky there are some things you still cantbuy im shy but i cant rely on this i cant apply what i know to this lost in timbaktu far away from you and i dont know what to do, fuck winne the pooh, i guess this is something i cant see you through i need a sancuary to go to it used to be you to be you i need that tattoo for me i need this GED i used to be artsy but now im less gutsy im an escapeefuck that im a fucking tree i cant leave i cantlet myself grieve am i naive? it all depends on howyou percieve what you believe in this has been broken time to begin within this life has worn thinno mo
First writing of Sleepless proportionsI hate so much how the urge to write works.
For just as you are inspired, you are uninspired
as the blankness stares back at you.
Words posses so much power of expression,
yet are such a cause of misunderstanding.
Just as i gain the courage to express myself,
i lose it. For when looking upon the never-ending
emptiness, hopelessness is born, and with this birth,
a feeling of realization that what you were going to
express no longer has meaning nor purpose nor worth.
Emotion works in a similar way, for just as you think
to make a response, you either say it without
analyzing it, or choose not to say something that
you were going to, dubbing it unworthy, or non-relevant.
Many people are victim to lack of expression, meaning,
they dont say what first comes to mind. In instances
such as these, the term 'follow your instinct' suits
them the best. What use are emotions if not to be
acted upon in the full intensity they are being
experienced? It is societies fault for causing this
2011 rhymesitting home all alone staring out the window wishing i was far away wishing i had time to play climb a tree feel the wind blow through me my mind is free and where are you, you wouldn't come with me had somewhere to be its okay I get it see ive always relied on myself no one else this life has taught me how to be and that is defensive out of danger never talk to a stranger how stranger it is all of this reminisce how did this happen this loneliness with one kiss you changed my life forever no more feelings whatsoever I lied im on the wrong side slip and slide my way down into a hole meet the moles im diggin my way out without a doubt you are who I need who I breathe meet me beneath the marquee so you can see how much you mean to me sweet pea you make me happy make me mad you make me fuckin sad gave you everything I had now im raving mad think of things in a different light you are my burial site tonight cuz this ryhme is for you everything you do everything you dont I wont make a deci
PastWhen i sit alone at home i think about my past
think back and remeber i thought shit would last
like when i was a kid, things will get better
well are they better now, i dont know for sure,
still havent found a cure for these diseases that plague us
but no one wants to discuss what opresses us
but this is what depresses us, yes.
Im not trying to tell a sad tale, we all searching
for the holy grail, but for what, to hold our ale,
that which makes us frail and makes us bring our tale
from between our legs and speak what we find in our mind,
we act like we are blind, resigned to a life of strife,
opression and depression, have no fucking discression please
fuck that ive declined that goverments a fucking brat
ill spit what i want like splat on your grave cause
you gave up things you never should have gave
but oh well we cant all be brave
I think about my old flings, wonder what kinda things
they say about me, i wonder if i would agree,
but thats all said and done, a war not won whats done